Saturday, December 12, 2009

Lost, and then found, my Christmas spirit

I think that for awhile I had lost my Christmas spirit. Misplaced among the chaos resulting from too many years of retail Christmas. With tinny carols blasting out of paging systems and too many stressed out shoppers taking it out on which ever unsuspecting customer service rep crossed their paths. Too much excess of over decorated, over primped displays of yet another cheaply produced, but expensive to purchase, and not needed "item of the year." My Christmas spirit seemed lost in the warehouse of never ending and overpriced gift items. Rat poop infested fake trees that needed to be rewashed each season, then dolled up, and put out in the hopes of trolling for a customer. In hours spent on your feet, smiling and being pleasant when all you long for is to curl up on the couch with your loved ones. In missing yet another year of spending Christmas with my family, because I don't get time off in December. Something happened today, when I was unpacking boxes of Christmas ornaments. I found my Christmas spirit again, apparently I had packed it away last year. I thought it was lost. Found it in the nostalgia reflected in delicate copper colored glass balls that hung on my family's tree over 4 decades ago. Each year it seems there are less, some are a little worse for wear, but they are so cherished. It also bounced out from little clear ornaments, that Bootsie played with, as I unwrapped them from their layers of tissue. Seeing the joy in his tail as it swished among the tissue, each crinkle exciting him into a frenzy. It was hidden in the treasures that held memories, and each item unwrapped added a little boost to my Christmas spirit. My poor battered, tired, lost Christmas spirit, is now shined up, and sparkling just like our Christmas tree. Looking around at the glimmer, and glow, from the glass balls added to our decor, to the cat bouncing through boxes like a kangaroo, and Gar snoozing in the chair, my Christmas spirit returned. Just like the credit card bills do every January. Only this is one delivery that is worth it.

17 comments:

  1. It's amazing what a memory can do to our spirits...glad you found that glimmer of hope Jen!!

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  2. Great photos of Bootsie this morning. I remember how Kaboodle loved to jump in and out of the storage boxes playing with the crumpled tissue paper back when we still put up a tree. Cats sure bring a lot of JOY to us every day! Wishing you a Merry Christmas season.

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  3. I think retail is responsible for this ailment... 26 years of it and I was ready for the easiest out available! But then, just as you said, something ever so simple - the smell of home baked goods, the appearance of an ornament from years gone by - the slightest trigger and you are flooded with the true spirit of the season. Glad yours has returned, just in time! Happy holidays my friend!

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  4. J~..
    beautifully expressed..
    loved each and every thought..
    you captured 'me' perfectly!
    now as I kiss my sister goodbye..
    on a rainy Florida December morning..
    and wing my way home westward to snowy Denver..
    I too will find my Christmas spirit..
    waiting amid the boxes and baubles..
    Warm hugs and smiles..Loui♥

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  5. Sweet post Jen! Glad you found your Christmas spirit. I think that is something that is easily lost in all the hustle and bustle of the season.

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  6. Oh Jen I am so glad you found it. Every little spark of Christmas spirit lights up the world a little more.

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  7. I hear you Jen. Retail can really burn you out for the holidays. After 15 years I quite it. Glad you got your Christmas spirit back on track.

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  8. Glad you found it!! I always get a little weepy when I open my mom's ornaments and then I feel a rush of love for my hubby and son.

    Hold onto that warm glow :)

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  9. I love your cat pictures, it seems like all cats love to play with ornaments! I too have been searching for my Christmas spirit this year - my kids are getting older, so the "magic" of Christmas is not the same. But, on the other hand, it is not so hectic, and I don't have to try so hard to find perfect presents, so that makes me happy!

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  10. I've felt the same way. I hate shopping, and I hate crowds. I hate the commercialism and the people running around with the loud cell phones trying to find the right gift. I made my own decorations this year, or used what I had. Today I finally got some up. I just haven't felt like dealing with it. Your words are beautiful!
    Brenda

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  11. Ah, another animal to the rescue! You know, Bootsie may have been playing with angels hiding in the tissue paper. They can see things you and I miss.

    I'm slowly getting into the Christmas spirit. It's been a tough year financially, and I'm just plain pooped from working so hard to make ends meet this year.

    I pulled a few of my Christmas decorations out this afternoon too and it helped to give me a bit of a boost. I'm thinking I may even get a Christmas tree this year. My first in several years. I've company coming over, so I've got to spruce the place up - pun intended.

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  12. Spirit...hmmm...
    I'll be working...ho hum.
    Just some poinsettias around the house and a big red bow on the door. Will have off a extra day to visit family...now that's a good thing !

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  13. Oh you found it..are you sure it is yours and not mine..LOL! Stunning photos of Bootsie..what a handsome dude he is:)

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  14. Dear All,

    You leave the nicest comments, and I did get a little weepy myself, maybe it was Gar snoring in his chair, or just Bootsies sheer exuberance. I am not sure.

    When I read what everyone has written, I am filled with hope. And a few tears.....you are always so kind in your comments.

    Although it has been a rather challenging year financially for us, we can only live in hope that next year will be better. I am so glad that we did decide to decorate, and celebrate the season.

    Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas, and a much better New Year. Jen, Gar, and Bootsie.

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  15. I'm so glad you found your Christmas spirit amidst all the over-consumerism and stress out there!

    A lovely post.

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  16. Dear Jen
    I am so glad you found your spirit again .. and it was perfect (purrfect ?) that Bootsie helped you find it : )
    I understand how you must feel .. so much to contend with , it is difficult to find spirit let alone KEEP it in the chaos .. hang in there girl .. you will have some quality time with Gar and Bootsie again : )
    Joy
    PS .. I love Bootsie's portraits

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  17. Bootsie is gorgeous!

    It's so easy to get lost in all the razzle, dazzle of the holidays. With so much to get done, sometimes I forget to have fun.

    Glad you found your Christmas Spirit! I'm hoping to find mine tomorrow!!

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